barbecue and beatles

its been a couple of weeks since the hsg. to my utter content and relief, everything flowed correctly. that along with the u/s findings that i have one ovary with 7 follicles and one with 16, has created this really positive and exciting aura that we go to sleep in, wake up in, and spend all day in. physically i am very ready. all tests out of the way, all results known, all im waiting on is cd1. then we jump on the clomid train, ovulation patrol, and finally insemination.

unfortunately, we are in a bit of a fuzzy stage monetarily. we have planned to do this with a's tax return which was delayed due to the incompetence in decision making skills in washington. ive been anxiously checking the irs website to see if it has been processed or not, but no answer yet. we had a talk and came up with a plan. we are huge believers in signs and that everything happens for a reason. if the money is in by wed. we will be ordering the seamen on friday to have them shipped to our dr's office for use in the next couple of weeks. if wed comes and goes and theres no money in our account, then it wasnt meant to happen this cycle and we will wait to insem in april. either way is fine by me. I know things that are rushed dont usually turn out well, and this is one of those things that I need to turn out well.

thats where we are now. playing the waiting game. fun...

my mother has been freaking me out. the other day we were at her house, working on a jigsaw puzzle and watching the latest novela, when she blurted out, "you need to have a baby already!" my mouth fell open and i glanced at a hoping she'd see that i havent said one word to her about our plans. i probably havent mentioned this, but when we decided to start a family, we knew we didnt want our families involved. we want nothing but positive vibes during this process, and as much as our families love us, they have a tendency to sprinkle situations with negativity. so we are only confiding in two of our really good friends and they have been complete dolls. back to my weird mother... she would not get off the baby subject! i told her we'd have a baby one day. little does she know that ive been taking prenatal vitamins for a month or so, that ive been going to the doctor about three times, and that we are already planning to get a second bedroom apartment when our lease is up. I just want it to all be surprise. I really hope and pray that everything happens the smoothest fastest way possible. we are so ready to be moms.