prayers and horoscopes

i have my first post-clomid ultrasound tomorrow. Im ready to find out whats going on with the follies. I feel heavy... I imagine my fallopian tubes looking like trees full of fruit. Ripe and ready to fall... As if my eggs are large peaches hanging heavily off the limbs. I feel as if I have gained weight. My pants fit tighter than normal, but the scale hasnt moved from a 4lb range. Its probably just bloat. I do, however, realize that if in about two weeks I get a BFP, I will be shopping for bigger clothes very soon.

I have had a pretty good weekend. Been to the rodeo twice in the last week. Once to see Bruno Mars, and last night went to see the Band Perry. Its been much needed distraction. I think I have been thinking too hard and too long about it. Today, I have been home alone with my thoughts and all I could do all day is stop and pray every five minutes. Speaking out loud to the Mother and her Son, my grandmother and her grandfather. Asking them to help us in this journey. Asking them for everything to look good tomorrow, and later on this week to help the little seamen make their way to Ms. Follie. I am such a control freak and having to leave it all up to God is hard for me, but I know that none of this is under our control. He has a plan, and all we can do is pray that it works out.

So tonight I will light a candle for Mary, I will pray to her and Him. Hoping my prayers are heard in the heavens.

PS. this was my horoscope on Friday. :)

You might decide to take some extra time at lunch or take off early - some recreational sport or hobby beckons. There is an amazingly good aspect in your "love and family" sectors right now - if you have been trying to start a family or add to one, now is the time to get busy with your, uhm, "expansion plans".