in one week i will be in limbo between the ultrasound and our insemination date. in one week, i will be sitting here, watching king of queens reruns, trying to keep my mind occupied.
today is day four of the clomid. i have been lucky enough that i have not felt many symptoms. until today... I had only had a couple of hot flashes, definite cramping or throbbing in my ovary regions, and i have been tired, like TIRED. I took pill #4 at around 4 o'clock today, and i have been cramping all afternoon and whoa, the mood swings. I was able to see my nephew this evening, and it brought all sorts of emotions to the surface. ive been crying on and off all evening. last day of clomid tomorrow. thank jeebus.
yesterday was the first year anniversary of a's grandfather's passing. we made a trip to visit burial place, and while her family was making small talk about people they know, i.e. gossip, all i could do was talk to him in my head. thanking him for all his amazing help. for being there for us even after being gone. I know he can hear us. i know he knows we think about him every day.
i have been feeling a little alone the last couple of days. i know i have a. here but ive been feeling like i have been talking about baby things all the time. I feel like i have been boring her, or annoying her, or just not keeping her interest. ugh... its probably just in my head.
Im so ready to be preggers... one more week.
Hey! Welcome to the cray cray world of TTC :) My wife and I are doing reciprocal IVF in April. It is indeed stressful and at times lonely, but there is an amazing blog world out there ready with advice and support when you need it from total strangers ;) Hope all goes well!
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Thank you so much! I have been reading blogs since we started our TTC journey. I find it both scary and reassuring to read everyone's experiences. They're all so different! Thank you again for your well wishes! <3
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